My body is a cage

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Alexxa. | 16. | Iceland. -Recovering from bulimia and self harm-

I’m 15 year old teen from Iceland.
I’m diagnosed with Obsessive- compulsive disorder, bulimia with anorexic tendencies, major depressive disorder, bipolar disorder, panic disorder with agoraphobia, ‘childhood anxiety disorder’, separation anxiety, slight schizophrenia, adjustment disorder, aviodant personality disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, and I’m waiting for more. I also self harm in almost every way possible. Just normal teen.
My dad is a drug addict and my mom used to be one. I live with my mom and 3 brothers and sisters. They all have their problems, diagnosed and not. 
My father had my oldest sister when he was 14, and then my oldest brother when he was 15. Now I have 13 brothers and sisters
My mother has 4 children on her own. She used to have 5, but my sister died when she was 5 months old when my mom was 15. 
My mother gave birth to me at age 19, she was high when she gave birth to me actually. She had 3 children at age 22.

I was sexual abused, mentally abused, even physically. I was bullied, I was almost killed. I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times. I’m still here. I will survive.  

But away from all depressing things.
-I’m Alexandra, usually called Alexxa tho.
- I’m fifteen years old, made in Iceland.
- I’m in a relationship with a girl, Magnea. If you’re going to leave shit in my ask box for it, then just go away.
- I have a cat, he’s a bit fat but he saved my life four years ago or so, he’s amazing. His name is Keli.
- I have a bunny on my own, Rocky. Little lionhead, a bit special, but yet so amazing.
- I basically love music. Metal, indie, post rock, grunge, gothic metal, depressing black metal especially. My favorites are Happy days and Arcade Fire.
- I used to sing, a lot. Now, I have accepted that my purging session ruined my voice. I’ve stopped.
- I used to play piano, guitar and clarinet. I stopped last year, I was just too sad to keep it up.